This all began about a month or so ago. During a fast, I begged and pleaded with God for a spiritual overhaul. My basis: He, the creator of the universe and can do anything, so why doesn't he just come in and change me. I, like many others who strive for righteousness and holiness,know that the pursuit of the standard of God is truly a grueling and frustrating one when attempting to do it without the power of the help and power of the Holy Spirit but....
More recently, The phrase “Be Led by the Spirit” along with “Be not conformed to this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind”, followed by Faith cometh by hearing and hearing by the word of God rang in my spirit constantly, so apparently God was trying to tell me that I needed to be transformed but only a consistent pursuit of studying the Word of God would achieve that.
An even stronger urge began to develop that God was trying to say something to me. Like so many others, hearing God lately has proved to be a bit difficult and has resulted in a lot of frustrating nights. I would go to sleep venting at God “okay, you set me apart, you made me different and I have finally accepted that but I am more lost and confused right now than I have been a long time. WHY WON'T YOU ANSWER
ME?!?!?!?” A couple of nights ago I came up with what I thought was a solution. I thought “yeah, that’s what I need to do, quiet myself and tell him I’m listening and then he'll speak.” This was proceeded with me laying down for bed and speaking the words “Speak Lord, I'm listening” and then I'll fall
asleep about 10 minutes later, undoubtedly not having heard the Lord.
ME?!?!?!?” A couple of nights ago I came up with what I thought was a solution. I thought “yeah, that’s what I need to do, quiet myself and tell him I’m listening and then he'll speak.” This was proceeded with me laying down for bed and speaking the words “Speak Lord, I'm listening” and then I'll fall
asleep about 10 minutes later, undoubtedly not having heard the Lord.
Last night, all this changed. The First thing you must know, I don't give those silly facebook apps
much thought. I had seen this one called “Today God Wants You To Know” and had read others and thought, that is way off!!!, according my knowledge of scripture. I had often saw the reactions of others above the post saying things like “WOW!!!” and “This is so dead on!!!” and after seeing that on another of my friends status, I went ahead and decided feed into the hype. I cynically clicked the link to
get my “personalized” word from God thinking, “Oh yeah, this is going to be one of those self serving "words from God" that people run to so often, but I'll humor myself.” The moment I clicked this link my heart fell into my stomach. It read:
“On this day, God wants you to know
much thought. I had seen this one called “Today God Wants You To Know” and had read others and thought, that is way off!!!, according my knowledge of scripture. I had often saw the reactions of others above the post saying things like “WOW!!!” and “This is so dead on!!!” and after seeing that on another of my friends status, I went ahead and decided feed into the hype. I cynically clicked the link to
get my “personalized” word from God thinking, “Oh yeah, this is going to be one of those self serving "words from God" that people run to so often, but I'll humor myself.” The moment I clicked this link my heart fell into my stomach. It read:
“On this day, God wants you to know
... that you've been talking to God too much, and not listening enough. Prayer is when you talk to God. Meditation is when you become quiet and listen to God. You've learned how to talk and ask well. Time to learn how to listen and hear, because God has been answering you.”
Needless to say my reaction mimicked those of whom I had seen before: WOW!!!
A (life) long standing joke between some of the people who know me best is the fact that I talk entirely too much. Who knew God shared the same sentiments and felt the need to tell me this
through a FB app all because he had been trying to talk to me the entire time and I refused to shut up!!!”
through a FB app all because he had been trying to talk to me the entire time and I refused to shut up!!!”
Let me say that I am not encouraging anybody to go out and get subscribed to this app as a means to replace a relationship with God. I have no idea who created this app and what their inspiration or purpose was, he may have very well been inspired by God, I just don't want anybody to think this is the solution. God just so happened to use this app to get his point across to me because I had been yelling and crying out and nothing more, not even taking the time to listen to His answering me. This revelation led me on a journey to really begin studying the art of meditating on God's word, as the scriptures demand. This, in less than 24 hours, has yielded some exciting results. I will not share it all in this blog but I have some good stuff to share that came as a result of literally meditating on God's word. Whats even more amazing is that I can't wait to get quiet!! Some of my friends would say that very fact is a miracle in and of itself.
Until Next Time…………
From My Heart to Yours
Renetha Buckley
www.passion4praise.com
www.passion4praise.com
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